My life changed when I began using my wheelchair and then even more when I was no longer able to work. I felt like I was announcing to the world that I was different and somehow deficient. In time I accepted myself in my chair with no job, knowing that I still have control over my attitude and my reaction to being at home all day. My new mantra became, “I am fortunate that I have time to follow my passions for sewing and crocheting”.
A new way of looking at things began with a pocket scarf I made after becoming frustrated because I spent so much time looking for my misplaced crochet hooks and scissors. One day I decided that I had to come up with a solution. Much to my surprise, I woke up the next day with my pocket scarf pattern in my mind. I imagined that I would come up with a creative solution, and I did!
I began a spiritual journey as well. While trying to keep my job while the new boss was trying to get rid of everyone in the department so she could hire her own people, I began to meditate. After I ended up losing my job anyway, I had even more time and meditated to help me deal with my anger. I wondered – if I connected more with Spirit, would ideas come more readily to me? One thing led to another, and now I read spiritual material, meditate, and create. It has been said that creativity is close to godliness, or to the One-ness, or to the divine. I found this to be the case – when I took the time to connect to Spirit, my creativity expanded. Now I have so many ideas, I wish I had more time to play with my fabric and yarn!